Unconditional

So today I had to make one of the hardest decisions in my life...to decide whether or not I want to continue my relationship with my mom. It should be an easy and simple decision but it is not. It should be a no brainer but it is not. It should be unconditional...it is, on one side. I love my mom deeply but cannot continue to live and interact with her the way that we do. It's not healthy for anyone.

There are so many stories I could tell about my childhood that would make you squirm but I chose not to tell them because they are in the past. I cannot change what happened but I can move forward in my life and make a choice to move past all of the bad that happened. there was good in those years but more bad than good. I am not one for rehashing the bad.

I had a couple of options, I could bring up all of the bad and confront her and watch her deny everything that happened and watch her walk out of my life forever or I could say nothing and chose to walk away on my own without causing her pain. I am not a confrontational person and so I chose the leaser of two evils. I chose to walk away...for now. Who knows what the future will hold for us. It's not the first time but it is the first time I feel peace with walking away.

Choices

I have been thinking about this a lot lately. I know so many people that are going trough different things in their lives right now, some good and some bad. I think all the time about the choices made to get to those places. If we chose one way, X will happen, if we chose the other, Y will happen. Sometimes the choices made are not even ones that we made ourselves but once that was made by another and it too does effect us.

I stress the importance of choice to my children daily. If they are having a bad day we talk about having the choice to continue to have a bad day or chose to turn it around and move on. This works well for children so why not adults? I have seen so many people in my life that have made choices that I never imagined they would make. I see what it has cost them. I have also seen the up side to this and am privy to the up side of choice.

A few years ago if you told me I would be where I am today I would have laughed at you. I never would have believed that someone could love me enough and the way I needed to be loved. I have found a love that for a long time never knew existed in life. It has taken a long time to get to where I am today but I am where I am today because of a choice. I chose for God to be in my life and to serve Him with all that I am. I chose to be there for a friend when they needed someone. I chose to be a part of something bigger. What choice will you make today in your life?

South Campus Project

Where did the year go? Seems like winter was just hear and we couldn't wait for spring!

Exciting things have been happening are are about to happen. last July we broke ground on our new church building. Here are some shots from the beginning to where we are today.

Digging the hole


Back wall going up


Trusses up


Outer shell done


Framing






Up with the insulation


Drywalling




Painting






There has been more done since the last photo was taken I just haven't had a chance to upload new pictures yet. Stay tuned!!!